in February, Zamora and i visited Guam after leaving unexpectedly in august.  it felt familiar but i didn’t quite belong. it was a quick trip to pay our last repects to a close child of our family’s, who we sadly lost to leukemia.  i haven’t quite been able to get my clean slate beginning while so many things are in limbo.

Zamora is the new beginning that i am blessed with in life and if it’ll be just me and my kids for awhile, i’ll take it any day.


i've grown tired of the "this time, last year" reflection. i put the life-changing events that have transpired in the last year into perspective and accept that i am not in an unfavorable predicament. one thing i often fear is regret. it is so easy to say it out loud when deep down inside those haunting doubts make my stomach turn. regret and doubt do not bear the same consequences. regret i have to live with indefinitely and doubts eventually become displaced.  what i have preserved in all this? sanity, freedom, a newfound hope for happiness.

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