i do consider myself an avid bloggist - most especially of those local - and am surprised i've never come across this one. i won't get into the story that has awarded it viral status in the last 24-30 hours but i could not help but read every single word all the way to the first entry. although not surprised at the dirty divulsions, i'm more than intrigued at the point of view (and thoroughly impressed at all the attention!). however, i am woefully reminded of why i've always been a reluctant participant of local politics. both in middle and high school, i am amused that i even took a stab at student government. not that this would have predisposed me to a career in that direction...but i am just not made for that kind of scrutiny! i'd like to consider myself a "doer" in any other case. this is because i am fully aware of how much weight the powers that be (tbtp) on guam do carry. i was once propositioned to be involved with campaigning when the gubenatorial elections were kicking off. i was immediately reminded of the potential evils and managed to remain uninvolved
when i moved home, my off-island state-of-mind never escaped me. in an attempt to exempt myself from any accountability whatsoever, i kept my CA voter registration intact. not only did this allow me to proudly vote for obama but it was also an attempt to separate myself from the challenged potlica. this responsibility weighed too heavily for me. it was mind-boggling to witness such shared hopelessness - where health care, education, and leadership are EXPECTED to have shortcomings....you can't help but ask "what is the point at all?". i regret not having been provoked enough to be involved in the changes that should/could happen because the deeper truth is that i am inherently connected to all the bureaucracies that occur on and off island. the lives of my parents and friends that are living there are a part of me. so i am saddened when i read of disturbing headlines which plague my feeds on a daily basis. and because i have marginalized my involvement, i have never felt worthy enough to express my opinion...especially about the "controversies".
