this time it's girls. a show about early 20-somethings on the brink of quarter-life crisis if not already there. there are candid sexual encounters and recurring themes of youth and desperation and hope all at once. and there are laughs and moments that are hard to watch because they only speak such truth.
i hope these girls stick around. there's has been so much buzz about this show (show's creator, lena dunham) and frankly, i'm glad i'm immune to it all so that i can enjoy it without bias.
this show really hits home. i'm in my 30's now but the 20's...oh boy, are they still fresh - disillusioned by so-called love, empty career paths, over-partying, clueless hope. It just went away too easily and I Stil miss it.
hardly a mess but definitely a struggle: i stumbled my way through architecture school and tirelessly worked a minimum of 2 jobs at once so that i can maintain a lifestyle of going out while being bound to another human being who only kept me at arms's reach. i was near spineless, undefined if you will. I thought I was set with my infidel man, shaky friendships, and shallow career.
i look at my photos and realize how little confidence i had. what was behind that smile? my son was not with me for the most part because i was too busy trying to turn into an adult. my girlfriends lived with me but they were all just easily distracted and i,too, had to witness their personal battles...everything from major, gut-wrenching breakups, (unplanned) pregnancies, and (attempts at) moving on.
there i was in a bubble. a bubble where i believed i had already arrived at life. i had only remotely understood what it meant to be an architect, much less an adult. i don't even think i believed i could do it. i was too busy dreaming about getting married and finding my happily ever after....not realizing that i didn't even need to find it, i had to uncover it from inside of me.
and to think there are people - even those that i know personally - who have never had an opportunity of self discovery because they skipped too many steps and never gave themselves a chance. whether it was sticking to a career that they weren't wholeheartedly invested in; compromising in a relationship that they were not completely happy with; or never even once traveling or leaving their comfort zone...it's never too late. i realize that my journey is not even over. i am always hungry for more. i am always thinking there is something greater because i fully believe i deserve it.
